Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Time

I need to ruthlessly get rid of business in my schedule. After reading through Chapter 5 of the life you've always wanted by John Ortberg, i know that my life is way to busy. I wake up and am going from 730 in the morning to close to 10pm at night some nights. Others days do have some free time , but then they are filled with things I couldn't do the rest of the week like go bike riding, running errands or flying with my boss. How do I go about changing this?
The problem is that I squeeze in things i don't need to do and squeeze out the things I do need to do. Here is where i find disappointment in my daily and weekly routine. Today, Wednesday may be the first time I see my dad since Saturday afternoon. We live in the same house, but I still don't see him. Some of this
is by choice, because I choose to do certain things after I get done with prior commitments that i don't get to see them. Other times it is just a conflicting schedule, but I want it to be better.

I recognize that I am not as happy or joyful when I am as busy as I have been. I love to be with people and to hang out, talk and be on the go, but that I also go until I have nothing left and I end up being overwhelmed and unhappy about how things or going or the stress and lack of time in my life.

My biggest disappointment may come from God's constant nudging that I am not spending time with Him. I haven't prayed or spent time int he Word. When i feel His nudges I often just want to not do anything rather than fall asleep while praying or be thinking of something else when I want to be spending time with God. I feel somewhat like I am stuck in the movie "groundhog day" and my day keeps repeating itself. I am not finding joy in what i do, my purpose has escaped me and it is staying that way. I want out of this repetitive cycle. I need to free myself of my business disease. I need to spend time with those I love, eliminate everything that is not necessary, focus on what God has put before me and worship Him for His unending pursuit of me.

I am really not sure who even reads this blog, but i am open for advice. Who else is busy and needs this change? How have others done this? Who has experienced this change?

and a quick apology to those who have gotten the short end of my business, i will do better.

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